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Friday, April 04, 2008
Darius4304 (2:00:13 AM): bad bad bad abda bad bda b ad
PixieCn (2:00:16 AM): Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
PixieCn (2:06:39 AM): uh oh
Darius4304 (2:06:51 AM): hello
PixieCn (2:06:57 AM): hi
Darius4304 (2:07:19 AM): wow
PixieCn (2:07:23 AM): what's up?
Darius4304 (2:07:53 AM): ashley just came in my room, looked around and said "bad. you guys...hiding my phone...looking at me text...fuckers!"
Darius4304 (2:07:58 AM): and then left and closed the door
Darius4304 (2:08:17 AM): i'm not gonna even try to talk to her
PixieCn (2:08:17 AM): what?
PixieCn (2:08:23 AM): did you take her phone?
Darius4304 (2:08:33 AM): i just walked in the door
PixieCn (2:09:17 AM): oh boy
PixieCn (2:09:26 AM): well, she probably needs time to cool off
Darius4304 (2:09:28 AM): i fucking hate this shit
PixieCn (2:10:27 AM): i'm sorry.
PixieCn (2:12:34 AM): these people in my apt are ridiculous
PixieCn (2:22:03 AM): kaytie is shaving andy's back
PixieCn (2:22:04 AM): lol
Darius4304 (2:23:04 AM): i cant fucking do this
Darius4304 (2:23:11 AM): i'm in way over my god damn head here
Darius4304 (2:23:17 AM): she is fucking crazy
Darius4304 (2:23:24 AM): officially crazy
Darius4304 (2:23:52 AM): she's crying, talking about how she gets used all the time and how she needs to "punish herself"
Darius4304 (2:24:19 AM): and then yells at me any time i try to say something encouraging
Darius4304 (2:24:45 AM): she's locked in the bathroom right now, i have no idea what shes doing
Darius4304 (2:24:49 AM): but it cant be good
Darius4304 (2:31:05 AM): well
Darius4304 (2:31:09 AM): she cut herself again
Darius4304 (2:31:29 AM): obviously nothing life threatening
Darius4304 (2:33:23 AM): i know you're not there, but i'm gonna vent to you anyway
Darius4304 (2:33:43 AM): all she fucking complains about is situations that she gets herself into
Darius4304 (2:34:20 AM): she complains about feeling used, well maybe she shouldn't fucking sleep with everyguy that looks at her the right way
Darius4304 (2:34:47 AM): then she does this and i'm the only one that will be there to try and make things better
Darius4304 (2:34:55 AM): i cant stand it anymore
PixieCn (2:34:56 AM): i'm sorry
PixieCn (2:35:02 AM): do you want me to come talk to her?
Darius4304 (2:35:05 AM): no
Darius4304 (2:35:08 AM): she's in bed
Darius4304 (2:35:09 AM): i think
Darius4304 (2:35:18 AM): it would probably just make her more pissed
Darius4304 (2:35:24 AM): that i talked to other people about it
PixieCn (2:35:30 AM): great. that is so unfair to you though
Darius4304 (2:35:46 AM): it sucks
Darius4304 (2:36:13 AM): tomorrow she'll be all apologetic and feel stupid about it
PixieCn (2:36:37 AM): i believe it
Darius4304 (2:36:39 AM): and ill be good about it cuz thats what people need when they're depressed
Darius4304 (2:36:53 AM): being pissed about it isnt gonna help anything
PixieCn (2:37:10 AM): unfortunately
Darius4304 (2:37:33 AM): and i come home to this after being in not too great a mood myself
PixieCn (2:37:57 AM): depression feeds off of depression.
PixieCn (2:38:13 AM): hard to be happy around someone who's not happy themselves. especially to this extent
Darius4304 (3:01:11 AM): ok
PixieCn (3:01:12 AM): Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
Darius4304 (3:01:14 AM): i think she's in bed
Darius4304 (3:01:23 AM): i cleaned her wound
Darius4304 (3:01:26 AM): she was pretty calm
Darius4304 (3:01:36 AM): but theres no real saying how she feels now
Darius4304 (3:01:46 AM): i hope she takes my advice and just goes to sleep
Darius4304 (3:03:13 AM): and what you said isnt necessarily true
Darius4304 (3:03:15 AM): for me anyway
Darius4304 (3:03:47 AM): i guess the one good thing about the whole situation was that trying to calm her down distracted me from my problems
Darius4304 (3:04:13 AM): that and the fact that i'm glad i never get like that
Darius4304 (3:08:07 AM): i'm going to bed
Darius4304 (3:08:11 AM): tomorrow is gonna suck

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