Forgotten
Presently in Hawaii...moved in two weeks ago yesterday. So much beauty, new experiences and excitement...but now is the sinking loneliness and depression that I expected would creep up on me. No, not depression. I cannot think of it that way. I must get running. I must throw myself into the exercise and transformation that I wanted to do. This is my Lincoln College Part II. New me, skinnier, happier, religious, re-vamped. However, so far I still have no job and I'm spending more money than I have. Matt wants to take care of me and buy me what I need, but I cannot take advantage of him. What if I cheat or stray...push him away eventually and ruin something good again? Who would I cheat on? I haven't made any new friends. I only know my new roommates and a couple of friends he has in the Navy. I feel like I'm a captive domestic dream of his. I'm here for him for emotional comfort, physical pleasure to pan out his dreams in his head. I know he cares about me an...