Changes
I haven't written in a very long time. A very very long time. And yet so much has changed. I am now going through a divorce. James and I got married December 1, 2009. By June 2010, I went back home to Illinois to think about what to do with the rest of my life. I had fallen for another man and was very confused, pained, and overwhelmed. I felt like if I'm having strong feelings for somebody else, should I really be married? Should I just fight through it and save my marriage? We were having problems, fighting a lot, and I lost a lot of feelings for James. Some friends and family said to just go back to him and work on things, get counceling, and others said to just leave him. I really didn't like the counceling option. To me, we haven't been married a year. If we are already having problems and need counceling, should we even be married? Who knows. I did decide to seperate. Whether or not it was the right choice, I guess I'll never know. To be honest, ...