Slide Off The Moon

Useless. Burden. Broken. Unwanted.  Unremarkable. Mediocre. Ugly. Fat. Failure.  Lonely. Forgettable. Lazy. Pathetic.  Stupid. Selfish. Weak. Difficult. Annoying.  I will be an inconvenience for a week or two.  Then life resumes. School still goes on. Jobs get worked.  The soil will swallow me and I won’t matter at all in death either. Not one bit.  Nothingness. Bring me nothing. No time. No thoughts. No pain.  An unlovable lump inside your throat. I’ll be removed. Sorry for the space I occupied. For the time I wasted. For the way I wasn’t easy. For the pain I brought. For everything. So pitiful was I. What silly dreams I had.  Will anybody actually mourn? Care about my things? My thoughts? Breathe my scent on left behind clothing? Say kind things? Or will it be like my father, dumpsters filled, smallest headstone bought and never visited enough? My pain too great to do him any honor.  I’m worthless and a burden. Of course not.  I h...

​ Tell me what you’re chasin’ Because the night’ll never give you what you want And if you can’t escape it I hope you find whatever you’ve been looking for I’m still here Remember me I keep swingin’ my hand through a swarm of bees ’cause I want honey on my table I’m tired of the way that I’m feeling It’s never ending, but I can’t let you go I’d die in my sleep To live in your arms And I’d stay trapped in this dream Don’t ring that alarm Where do I fit? I don’t belong I wanna ruin all my plans I want a fist around my throat I wanna cry so hard I choke I want everything I asked for We make plans for good times All neon, all surface So kiss me before It all gets complicated I’ve got a taste for blood I can’t shake the feeling that I’m just someone to blame And I’m a monster on the hill Too big to hang out, slowly lurching toward your favorite city Pierced through the heart but never killed One day I’ll watch as you’re leaving And life will lose all its meaning Chew me up and spit me out ‘...